Sunday, November 29, 2015

Everything I Didn't Yet Know...I'm Learning in Kindergarten





On the heels of this year’s Thanksgiving holiday, I am reminded just how thankful I am for my kindergarten class at Crosshill Christian School. I have the privilege of teaching eight precious girls and four precious boys each day. They bring me so much joy—it’s beyond expressing in words…but I will try.

Some adjectives to describe the various members of my delightful class: spunky, blunt, sweet, thoughtful, conscientious, affectionate, tender-hearted, hilarious, intelligent, stubborn, shy, outgoing, adventurous, hard-working, creative, artistic, energetic, silly, inquisitive, attentive, kind, eager, confident, encouraging…and all-around endearing.

There’s nothing very subtle about kindergartners. They pretty much tell it like it is. And sometimes one can’t help but crack up a bit. Like the time one of my students thought the bluish, reminiscent-of-the-60s designs on my sleeves were actually arm tattoos. Or how they love it when Mrs. Kephart makes a “mistake” or tries to “trick” them—they giggle at some of my on-purpose goofs; little do they know that they’re solidifying their skills by spotting the errors and correcting them. Oh, and they'll let you know if your hair looks "funky" or if your sweater happens to be hiking up in front.

This is a class I get rave reviews about from substitutes. And it’s no wonder—they’re amazing! But it really is a miracle I’m actually teaching them.

You see, I never thought I’d enjoy teaching kindergarten. And after several years teaching elementary pull-out language arts, that perspective was confirmed. After all, kindergartners couldn’t write long stories, they didn’t know all their parts of speech, their reasoning skills weren’t very developed, they sometimes would cry or even throw tantrums. I just couldn’t see myself teaching “little people,” who were at the beginning of the developmental spectrum. And honestly, I didn’t think they’d like me—I wouldn’t be “fun” enough. I had a lot of reasons, the primary of which was that I just wasn’t cut out for kindergarten.

And then God opened a door…right into the very thing I had mentally run from previously. But the thing was—He had changed my heart. Sure, I still wondered if they’d like me. But I was no longer scared of teaching kindergarten. As soon as I opened myself to the possibility, God turned it into a supernatural capability. And not only that—He filled my heart with such a love for these kids that I couldn’t help but love every aspect of the job itself.

The truth is—it doesn’t really feel like a “job.” It feels like I’m fulfilling a calling. It feels like I’m exactly where I’m supposed to be. And it feels like I’m even pretty much rocking at it. Now that these kids are “mine,” I can’t imagine ever having been without them. They are the sunshine, the rainbow, the flowers, the birds—everything pleasant and joyful. Sure, some have their moments (who doesn’t?), but I’ll always be grateful for this, my first kindergarten class—for each individual child represented—and all that they’ve taught me.

In kindergarten, you learn how to smile. You learn to give hugs. You learn to make mistakes. You learn to laugh at yourself. You learn to make others laugh. You learn to cut the top off your Gogurt. And you learn that this class is a place to grow. Well, I already knew the Gogurt part…but I’m growing in all those other ways, right along with the kids. And we all seem to have a remarkably positive effect on one another.  

Honestly, I couldn’t imagine myself teaching anything but kindergarten this year. I adore my students. And I am grateful to God for second chances—the chance to experience His goodness through the eyes and hearts of twelve kindergarten children I get to call “my class.” They have taught me that kindergartners are extremely impressive thinkers, that it doesn’t matter at all that I’m not teaching sentence diagramming or how to change an adjective to an adverb. I’m present in this moment—and I don’t want to be anywhere else.

Love you all—Ava, Chloe, Dreyk, Emma, Havalah, Isa, Isaac, Luke, Maya, Megan, Seth, Zoe. You’re my little owls. ☺

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